Love for Love's Sake - Chapter 80
Chapter 80
“What did you just say?”
Cha Yeowoon asked curiously. I had a bad premonition. I became anxious and tried to squeeze out my voice again.
“I’m originally…,…!”
The same. No matter how hard I tried, it was the same.
I couldn’t say what I wanted to say; that I was 29 years old, and that I was here because of Cha Yeowoon. None of what I wanted to say came out properly.
[ A system error has occurred. ]
Before I could be frustrated, tinnitus pierced my eardrums. It was a warning.
[ Server stabilization is in progress. Please follow the instructions. ]
[ Proceed with the reset according to the recommended order. ]
The prominently highlighted letters in red were threatening. Cha Yeowoon’s face showed concern as I furrowed my eyebrows.
“Senior? I couldn’t hear you well.”
[ If reset does not proceed, a force reset will be executed. ]
It was then that a familiar shadow began to appear.
Similar to the gray shadows that would appear whenever I was nearby Cha Yeowoon at negative favorability, it crawled up his shoulders.
Despite the darkness of the night, a much darker shade climbed across his collarbone and wrapped itself around his neck.
My tinnitus, which had momentarily subsided, continued. Simultaneously, my throat tightened, and the back of my head was painfully pulled.
I could foresee what would happen if I stubbornly held on like this. No, I wasn’t exactly sure what to expect, heightening my nervousness even more.
It was better for me to do it myself.
“Let’s break up.”
Even as I said it, I couldn’t believe that I had actually uttered such words.
Cha Yeowoon blinked.
For the first few seconds, his expression seemed to be contemplating the meaning of the words he had just heard.
“What do you mean?”
Cha Yeowoon asked affectionately as if he believed that there would be an understandable explanation. When I didn’t respond, a neutral smile gradually faded from his face.
“It’s exactly as I said. Let’s stop dating now.”
I drove the wedge in, like piercing Cha Yeowoon’s chest with a steel nail.
His smiling face that was comfortable just a moment ago contorted without knowing what to do. The gaze that was circling my face in bewilderment fell.
The thick gray shadow that was wrapped around his neck retreated, yet there was no room for relief. Cha Yeowoon was acting as if being strangled.
“I thought we had finished talking about that. You said you wouldn’t say that.”
Breathless words finally came forth. Under my plain white shirt, my chest throbbed.
“That was then, and now I think I should tell you.”
“Why all of a sudden? What did I do wrong?”
“You didn’t do anything wrong.”
When I denied it, Cha Yeowoon shook his head vigorously. It was an attitude that believed there must be something he had done wrong. As if that was corrected, everything would be fine.
What should I do? I felt at a loss, as I had been quite often lately.
“Cha Yeowoon, listen. I’m not suggesting breaking up because you did something wrong. Like you said, we started dating by chance, and now it seems like it’s time to sort things out.”
I tried to speak calmly, but the contents that came out sounded like I had played with Cha Yeowoon’s feeling. From his point of view, it wasn’t entirely wrong.
“Why is what you said in the park different? What’s the reason for changing your mind after a few days?”
Cha Yeowoon asked without pausing to take a breath.
“Just…”
Unable to choose the right words, I trailed off. I couldn’t tell the real reason. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to, but I couldn’t. It felt suffocating as if my heart would burst.
“I can’t date you right now.”
“What do you mean, I don’t understand.”
Cha Yeowoon exhaled as if he were about to explode, raising his voice.
“Did we come here for this? Why? Just dump me in front of your house. Senior must have found it funny watching how excited I was thinking you had brought me to a special place. Right?”
Cha Yeowoon threw accusations like thorns. My mouth went dry at the outrage. I knew I had to calm him down step by step for his sake, but my tongue didn’t move.
His eyes were already red. The memory of him anxiously asking if we were going to part ways stabbed at my heart.
“You can’t break up without an explanation. Why do you always say nothing?! If senior says it’s the end, do I have to agree? Just do as you say? Why did you date me if it would be like this?”
As Cha Yeowoon approached with a growl, I instinctively took a step back, and my side suddenly became dark.
The shadow of the bridge was covering us.
In the darkness, Cha Yeowoon drove me into a corner.
“Why don’t you like me anymore?”
Cha Yeowoon’s voice cracked, making a grating sound. He roughly held onto my shoulders. The hem of my shirt was pulled toward him, lifting and letting in cold air.
Contrary to the situation, our lips pressed against each other. A sticky breath grazed my cheek. I tightly closed my eyes.
It wasn’t a situation where I could act as I pleased.
“Stop.”
When I pushed Cha Yeowoon away, the determined look in his eyes collapsed.
Moonlight shone on him as he slipped out of the shadow. In the bright light, his eyes were wet as if he might cry at any moment.
“I was wrong.”
Cha Yeowoon, with tears in his eyes, grabbed my wrist.
“I know you’ve been thinking about breaking up. I know…but can’t we continue dating? I’ll be good. I won’t be a bother.”
Cha Yeowoon’s grip loosened. I wished he had shown anger instead; it was hard to watch him plead.
“If there’s something you don’t like, I’ll fix it. I’ll do whatever senior says.”
“No need for that.”
I meant to say Cha Yeowoon shouldn’t plead because it wasn’t his fault, but what came out sounded harsher than I intended. Letting go of the hand that was holding onto me also seemed to have conveyed a different meaning.
Before I could explain, Cha Yeowoon bent his knees.
“Please. Senior…”
Cha Yeowoon knelt down on the dirty ground covered with weeds and dust, burying his face in the back of my head. Hot liquid trickled between my fingers as tears gathered along the edge of my hand.
“Don’t cry.”
It was dizzying, figuring out how to console Cha Yeowoon. He looked so fragile, with trembling shoulders and tears streaming down his face.
“I won’t cry anymore…”
Soo many chapters at the same time thank youuu ❤️❤️ also this senior needs to leave these boys alone 😭